It's been almost a year since I was on here. It was kind of a crappy year, last year. I hurt my back and it got pretty bad toward the summer, couldn't sleep for more than an hour or two at a stretch because of the pain. That sucked, and even after physical therapy that got rid of the pain I was/ am slightly traumatized from the experience. I had been considering suicide despite not being depressed, and I feel mentally scarred from where my mind was. I feel like I was set back in nearly every aspect of my life.
I think I prefer the feeling of being suicidal when I am depressed, rather than the feeling of wishing to end my life due to poor quality of life. Suicidal depression was always cushioned by periods of apathy. Wanting to die because of near constant physical pain and sleep deprivation just straight up sucked.
I've been working on drawing for the last couple weeks! Last year I did not draw as much as I would have liked to. I did sculpt more, early in the semester. I made some things I should figure out how to photograph.
I want to work on art more frequently this year.